things that make you go hmmm...

why do i write in this blog? i've been asked that question on numerous occasions since i've started and i've thought about it. besides killing some down time at work, why am i writing in this blog?

that's a good question. i guess it's a question you could ask of every blogger out there. and i guess the answer is because people like to be heard. people like the idea that there are other people in this world that actually might care about what they have to say. and only the internet makes it possible.

think about it for a second. picture all the blogs available online and imagine if they were actual people just standing on the sidewalk showering their opinions/whinings upon you as you stroll on through. who the hell cares! personally, i'd probably punch a couple of these morons in the face. but online, it's accepted. it's even praised and passed around to friends.

and that's all blogs are: an outlet to shout to the world your very own opinion on anything at all. because the truth is, in real life, not very many people are a) good listeners or b) care about what strangers have to say. but on the internet, these 2 points are moot. hehe. i like that word. moot. moot moot moot moot moot.

anyway, see? if i did that in person, someone would definitely want to shoot me. but online, it's great!

for me, i write for a few reasons. one is that, like every other blogger, i like the idea of people, not just friends or people that know me, but random strangers reading my thoughts (although from my comments, i'm apparently failing at this aspect miserably. except for my loyalest reader, dk. hehe hi dk!) another reason i write is because i simply enjoy writing. i've always kind of wanted to be a writer but never really had the balls to pursue it. my dream was to be a sports writer, someone like rick reilly. his is the greatest job in the world. once a week, he writes on whatever he feels like, be it sports related or not, for the greatest sports magazine in the world. and his material is awesome, not only funny and entertaining but sometimes enlightening and thought-provoking. and that's another reason that i like writing. because i like putting things out there that make people laugh or make people think. the attention is not the issue, it's the actual act of looking at people's faces and seeing them either amused or thoughtful. and if i've caused that, i like it. i like discussion, thoughtful debate, inane wit and reasoning. and that's what writing is, it's creating entertainment. there are so many times i've read something be it a book or an article and recommended it to a friend b/c it affected me so strongly. not like i broke down crying afterwards but b/c it made me laugh, it made me reflective, it changed the mood of my day. and i hope that my writing in whatever form it takes, this blog, my (coming soon) screenplay, does the same for someone. anyone. please someone just read me!!!

sigh. anyway. this entry was a little dull but whatever. go poop yourself.

also, for any football fan, you must watch this HS reggie bush highlight video. (the link's on the left side right under reggie's face) i've only got 3 words. un. frikkin. believable.

randomness.

today i was on the elevator with some scrubby looking dude and he got off on his floor first. but as he's getting off, he lets out this burp and he's like "oops, excuse me" and gets off. as soon as the door closes, one of the worst smells i have ever smelt attacked my nostrils (and i've smelt a lot of bad smells... trust me). i couldn't even do anything. i was just stuck in this box with the aroma of death circling around me, enclosing me in a pungent prison of putrid pain. hehe. alliteration is my friend.

also, i want to see the new king kong movie solely for the fight between him and t-rex. that should be gangsta. and wouldn't it be great if they gave king kong a voice? me and dk were talking about this and we were saying the movie would be 10x better with a king kong voice. im imagining something like barney from the simpsons. like he's holding naomi watts and starts undressing her and then goes "hey! you're not a banana!" that would make this movie sell so much better. seriously, i need to be in a position of power in a place like hollywood or anywhere else.

another movie tidbit: "harry potter 4" was possibly the worst movie i've ever paid money for in my life. actually no, that was "crazy beautiful" (sidenote: any movie that has to have one of its characters actually say the movie title during the movie is so stupid. when the guy goes "you're crazy" to kirsten dunst, who by the way is so annoying and ugly it hurts me to look at her, and she responds with "you're beautiful", i wanted to punch myself in the throat. seriously, would "the usual suspects" be such a great movie if kevin spacey looked at the band of misfits and said "well, looks like you've got the usual suspects"? or if mel gibson looked at the english army and said "this looks like a job for... braveheart!"? this should be an unwritten hollywood rule. kind of like actresses must either do a nude scene (halle berry) or become ridiculously ugly (charlize theron, nicole kidman) to win an oscar. back to "harry potter 4".) it was so choppy and cut between scenes so badly that if you hadn't read the book, it'd be impossible to follow the plot much less the new characters this book introduces (not like i've read the book or anything). also, the new dumbledore was a complete ass. he was all over the place, yelling, pushing, acting like a moron, not like the cool, suave, awesome dumbledore we've all come to know and love (not like i've read the book or anything). and could the acting be any worse? it's like they picked random british people off the street and gave them a script. "oh you have a british accent? AND red hair? perfect, you're ron weasley." and why is everyone in the movie so ugly? besides lucius malfoy played by jason isaacs, everyone is ridiculously ugly. and i only don't include jason isaacs because he plays the best bad guy ever. when he kills mel gibson's son in the patriot and rubs it in his face that that's the second son he's killed, oh man, that's awesome. any bad guy that brags about killing multiple family members to your face is a gangsta. but besides him, everyone looks like they fell down the ugly tree and hit every frikkin branch, twig, and leaf on the way down and then landed in the ugly puddle at the bottom. is that because all wizards are supposed to be ugly? or just british people? ginny is supposed to be cute and get mad guys for goodness' sake. (not like i read the book or anything)

anyway, there's my randomness for the day. so if you haven't seen "harry potter 4" yet, save yourself the money and don't. just read the book. i uhh... heard it was pretty good.

pay it forward. kinda.

one of the things i hate the most about new york city is walking by homeless people. just think about the situation for a second. every day at least once a day, you walk by someone who's total net worth including the clothes on their back probably totals less than the amount of money you spend on dinner.

the truth is, there are a lot of hard-pressed people in this world, let alone new york city. people who struggle everyday just to survive, just to get enough food/water to continue living. there's a lot of pain in this world. not even just physical pain, but a whole lot of sadness and unhappiness. is that right? next to basic human needs like water, food, shelter, etc., the next thing every single human being deserves is to be happy. i truly believe that. and i don't mean happy in the sense "oh life is so great i've got a wife and kids and a little puppy and a nice house and my 401K is huge" but just be able to smile. to look at your life and have your feelings lift even the tiniest bit b/c hey, you're alive. but even on the subway, i see so many people who just look so sad. just plain unhappy. and i start to wonder, "where are these people going? are they going home? what is their home like? what happened to them today to put them in this mood? or are they always like that?" and i hate thinking like that b/c my imagination goes overboard and i start imagining really tough situations and it just makes me sad.

which i guess is the point of all this. someone reading this could say, "you don't really care about all these people, you just care b/c it makes YOU feel uncomfortable." and they'd be right. damn right it makes me uncomfortable. and some days, depending on my mood, it makes me angry or sad. but i'm not here to get into an argument on the reasons for charity or volunteering or some other crap like that. i'm just here to state a point and my opinion on it.

the bottom line is, this world is tough and the majority of people in this world probably aren't very happy. so the next time you see someone begging, spare a dollar. the next time you're walking down the street, don't be such a jerk. smile at someone (and not in a creepy stalkerish i own polaroids of you that you don't know exist kind of way).

b/c in the end, you judge a man's character not on the way he treats his equals or superiors, but those "under" him. i forget where i read that first. i think it was in a C.S. Lewis book. speaking of which, the Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe looks gangsta.

nickname update.

today, as i was walking down the hallway at work, a colleague greeted me with an interesting epithet: Davidstar.

now either he got confused and actually believed my name is Davidstar (it's not, by the way) or he got flustered between deciding whether to refer to me by my real name (which in this business is a no-no. superfluous nicknames only!) or a common office moniker. either way, he sounded like a moron.

that's it for now, i'm a busy man. Davidstar out.

amazing.

http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/page2/story?page=fleming/051102

this is seriously worth your time reading. Indianapolis Colts linebacker Gary Brackett just talks about dealing with life, grief after losing his father, mother, and brother in the span of 16 months. the stuff he says is really amazing and gives you a different perspective on things. it's a little lengthy but well worth it.