life... will it take me under? i wonder... (who gets that reference)

people don’t seem to like my deep, philosophical posts. “this isn’t funny”, “it made me think”, or my personal favorite, “your blog sucks” are the typical responses i get after a particularly mentally engaging entry. of course since no one leaves comments and all my readers probably think they’re the only person in the world who knows this blog even exists, you could argue that i’m making these responses up. you’d be absolutely right but i’d also kill you so you’d be absolutely dead as well. ergo, this entry is going to be deep so if you don’t want to read something like that, i suggest you scroll down to my earlier posts where i discuss passing gas at work.

anyway, i think it’s a good idea to sit back and think every now and then. personal reflection time is one of the things i miss most about being in college. it’s one of the things i miss the most about real life actually, seeing as how my current job leaves me no free time at all. (“what? you want to see your family? do that on your own time, sucker. today’s sunday. that means work day.” “what? you think you’re bleeding internally? stop making $#!& up and get back to work. your vision’s getting blurry? it’s your monitor, restart your computer”)

but i think time to ‘think’ or personal reflection time is essential to a fulfilling life. if you don’t stop and take a step back every now and then, you never get to see the full picture, you never really get to look ahead and see where your road’s going. life then no longer becomes a journey but a meaningless sprint from point to point, hurrying along, trying to just get by. that’s not what life should be.

human beings have a gift of mental capacity that separates us from other living things. the last i heard, no raccoon ever wrote a book, no rhino ever sculpted a naked dude with an itty bitty wang, no tree ever waxed philosophical about the origin of roots; their only concern is survival. i’m not saying everybody out there needs to discover some inner artist, but i do believe that every single person should consider what their life is about. even if it’s just about getting by and doing the day to day to survive, that’s ok. but just know that that’s what your life is. and if you want your life to be different? then try. go towards that goal. don’t just sit back and let life pass you by.

i have to admit that i feel a bit hypocritical writing this since i could definitely heed my own advice. that’s part of why i write too, i guess. when i see my words, it allows me to reflect and consider if what i’m saying is true. and right now, i really don’t know where my life is headed. i see one path that i know i don’t want to take but it’s very safe and very easy. then there’s another path that’s much harder and full of uncertainties. and what about the other paths that i haven’t even considered?

see how complicated this is? and this is just for me and i’m a relatively simple guy. surround me with basketball and korean food and i’m pretty satisfied.

what about you? are you happy with where your life is and where it’s going? why or why not? and are you willing to live that way for the next 40 years or whatever? cuz life’s coming on quick and before you know it, it could be gone.

think about it.